September

And it's the first day of the first month that ends with "-ber". September is here, and Christmas is near... 

Last year I got an early gift. I met and was able to know personally a very special guy. He's a tennis player, and i first saw him when he competed in a provincial meet. I didn't see him play coz I was busy giving support to my tennis players. But he caught my attention coz that time, I was given the idea that he is the player to beat. And when I saw him, I find him good looking. From there, I was hoping I will have the chance to get to know him more. After awhile, our head informed me that I will be their chaperon for the regional meet. And I was in awe, coz it means that I will be with him for the entire regional meet period.

True indeed, we had the chance to bond each other. Get to know each other. And everyday, I fell in love with him. He's such a charming guy, and from them on I prayed. I prayed I can have him with me. I took care of him everyday, trying to give him what he desires, to the best that I can. When it was over, I was sad, I thought it will also be the end of "us". But I was wrong. Our communication were there, we meet a day before christmas in Tanjay. Then we meet again in February, days before his birthday. And during Palaro in April, we met again. We even watched the movie, Iron Man. It was fun, and it was the moment that I was getting myself into him. And I know it will lead to heartache. Even if it's so hard, I started to avoid him. Not returning his calls, not replying his messages, ignoring him completely. Difficult is an understatement, because I had a hard time doing it. But I told myself, this is for me, protecting my heart. Day by day, I was able to do it. And there was a point that he gets tired sending me unreplied messages, calling me unanswered calls, so he stopped. And it was the end. I think he is just an extended 2012 story. But I had a great time. Some good things never last. He is good for me, but can never be mine. And that I'm sure. I miss him though.

Hopefully this year, I will have a more exciting christmas gift story. A story, that will last a lifetime. I know it's big, but who knows. Unexpected happens, and the only thing constant is change. Crossing my fingers!