Robert - An old friend from an old life

when i left the office for the last time that day, i was prepared never to see you again. all i wanted was to confess how i really felt (something i've never done in my entire life), and then i could leave you in peace. i knew you were in love with her, so i resolved to give way to your happiness. i thought i was doing the right thing.

now you call, and i find out he hurt you. the nerve of that bitch, how dare she disrespect you like that! she deserves to rot in jail for violating you. right now i feel like ramming my hands down her throat, taking out her guts and skinning her alive. bastard.

i'm sorry. if only i knew... i thought being with her would make you happy. even now you're still in love with her. hearing you say this really irritates me. yet, on a certain level, i do understand... and that irritates me more. you try to pacify me by sounding like what she did to you was no big deal. do you think for a second that i believe you? try as you may, you can't hide the disappointment you feel between the lines, nor the sadness between the smiles. the only thing that calms me down is that you have your mind over your heart, prepared to lose her. now that's the man i fell for.

i'm thankful you haven't changed since we've parted ways. i know i haven't been a very good friend to you lately. i'm aware that i'm not nearly as thoughtful as i used to be. i don't call or write to you anymore, yes. but then you must understand, i had to try and get you off my mind. for my own sake.

you said you wanted to see me. and i admit, i also have the urge to see you. more so after this. i do miss you. as a friend? as something more? i don't know. i didn't want to dwell on the feeling. i see no need to complicate matters. i just want to be there for you, because one thing i do know is that in the past, your mere presence gave me comfort. now, let it be the other way. i owe you that much.

so here, take my hand. hold on tight, little one. hold tight.