Adios

This time, I don't want to bargain anymore. I hate myself for remembering and again falling stupidly to such wonderful eyes. I've been through hell since he walked away. Not knowing what I have done wrong, asking myself question which up to now remains unanswered. I grew tired of searching and waiting. Maybe I got used to the pain and my tear ducts has dried up. I was numbed. I have learned to close my eyes to hide the pain, not to see more of what might add to the injury. I learned to be deaf of the sound of his voice. I maybe hearing the sound but not listening to what he has to say. I became mute. I know I have so much to say yet I produce not even a single word when I speak. I was hurt, I got numbed but I moved on.

Time moves every second as the earth moves on its axis. Time passes by so fast that when you have learned to cope to the disasters in your life you’ll never notice how much you have changed and how far you have traveled.

Right now, I wake up every morning greeting the sun as it rises. Thanking God for another beautiful day. I may have lost someone special yet I gained more than I imagined. The strength, lessons and maturity is far greater than the pain he gave me. Rather than blame him and torture myself, I’ll even say, “Thank you for the brief time we have shared. You are like a wind which swiftly felt by my world and in reality were never bound to stay.”