We can love someone and just be happy about it even if we know that it cannot last forever. It is not about having someone. It is not about owning a relationship. Rather it is just about being happy because you know you have loved someone. There is a purpose and meaning behind all these events, and this purpose and meaning develop you as a person and a lover. Whatever relationships you have in your life now, they are precisely the ones you need at this moment.

I know I need you for me to be happy knowing that there's something I look forward to everyday... But ours is a little vague for I don't know exactly how you feel on me... So I decided to start forgetting you and move on...

MATR II

Loving is a lot like watching a 20-minute fireworks display.. Exciting, emotional, romantic, sweet, memorable. But it also ends as dramatic as it begins to fade slowly into thin air. As much as you want to keep watching, there's nothing you can do to make it stay. In the end, all that's left is a starless night and the fact that in this life, good things never seem to last. :'(

Half-Life - Oliver James

Afternoon
Fell asleep in the living room
Its one of those moments
Where everything is so clear
Before the truth goes back into hiding
I wanna decide cause its worth deciding
To work on finding something more than this fear
It takes so much out of me to pretend
Tell me now
Tell me how
To make ammends

Maybe, I need to see the daylight
Leave behind the half life
Dont you see im breaking down
Oh lately
Something here dont feel right
This is just a half life
Is there really no escape
No escape from time
Of any kind

I keep trying to understand
This thing and that thing my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know when I figure it out

And I dont mind a few mysteries
They can stay that way
Its fine by me
But you are another mystery I am missing
It takes too much out of me to pretend

Maybe
I need to see the daylight
Leave behind the half life
Dont you see I'm breaking down
Oh lately
Something here dont feel right
This is just a half life
Is there really no escape
No escape from time
Of any kind

Come on lets fall in love
Well come on lets fall in love
Come on lets fall in love
Again

Cause lately
Something here dont feel right
This is just a half life
Without you I am breakin down
Awake me
I wanna see the daylight
Save me from this half life
Lets you and i escape
Escape from time

Come on lets fall in love
Come on lets fall in love
Come on lets fall in love
Again

(Pics taken from HD saved by someone I don't know or I can't remember... But he's guapo so go sa post...:)

Parallel Lines

I've been thinking a lot about lines lately.
About parallel lines and perpendicular lines and straight lines and curved lines and lines that aren't quite parallel but aren't quite perpendicular, either.

I've think lines are like people.

You and I are like parallel lines. Sometimes it seems like we drift closer together and sometimes it seems like we couldn't be farther apart. Parallel lines have a lot in common, but they never meet.

And I think that's pretty sad.

I guess I'd rather want us to be like parallel lines than like perpendicular lines. Perpendicular lines are like some of the saddest people I've ever met. They drift towards one another, meet for just an instant, and then drift apart forever, destined to go their separate ways and never meet again.

Which is pretty sad too.

Curved lines are like lucky people. They intersect with another line once, then can go back and meet with it again and again and again, forever. Curved lines can even bend so close to other lines that they're almost the same line, or at east are almost never not intersecting with another line.

Sometimes I wish we were like curved lines instead of like parallel lines. But I guess that can't happen because if we change line types, we might change people too. If we were like curved lines instead of parallel lines, I wouldn't be me and you wouldn't be you. And that's what I like best about you: you.

I guess you and I are stuck being parallel lines. Forever friends, and can never be lovers...:'(

Unfaithful - Rihanna

To whom do I dedicate this song? Hmmm... Maybe to him who can't get over with his first true love. I'm sorry with what happened to you but honestly I hope that your all well and striving to survive... I know you'll get over her, someday...


Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
'Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

'Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Whoa, oh.
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)
No, no, no Yeah, yeah, yeah

Gab and Margie - Meant for Each Other

Shakespeare has once said, 'Love is not love which alters when its alteration finds.'  When life gets hard, when things change, true love remains the same. It is very easy to fall in love, yet it's hard to stay in love.

When both of you believe, trust and help each other, the roads maybe rocky but hold on, and you will find your way. Coz you are meant for each other and when you join forces, nothing can come between the two of you, except God. So God bless and keep holding on!

Congratulations, from all of us, DUEÑAS Family.

Check - paperclip

Unexpectedly you came. Indifferent and clueless but you had the aura of complexity. I didn’t bother to recognize the beauty that was innate in you for it was just one of those senseless conversations for me. We were both minding our own pointless existence. As the witty exchange of words drew us together, it suddenly occurred to me that this was different. You were different. I instantly noticed how amazingly smart you were. That and more. 

I was the black pawn. You were the white knight. We were always on the same board but we never had our squares aligned. While I was busy protecting, shielding my own realm, you were having your own share of victorious moments. I took my steps one square at a time, constantly being aware of the threat that haunted me for years. Your valor radiated from within while your horse galloped. Your mere presence was too overwhelming for me not to notice. 

You were my metaphor. 

Your vagueness was intriguing me. 

For some strange reason it was as if I understood every crap you’ve been telling me. I just refused to acknowledge the fact that they were affecting me this much. I was trying desperately hard to resist being dragged any further into this but the scent of paranoia that once lingered in my whole being seemed to have faded. 

It had its toll. 

You had me. 

We both knew that we could not justify the mediocrity of it all. You once told me that caring for someone over SMS was hypocrisy. Still you said you meant those words that you blurted out that one midnight when I was about to hit the sack. How ironic. I had doubts about its sincerity, though. I told you that. You didn’t argue. You just understood. 

I was confused that’s why I just had to draw the line. I didn’t want to hold on to something that was not even there. You assured me that it was there, constantly hovering over my open palm. Somehow I just couldn’t grasp it. Maybe because I was just trying hard to get a grip of it for I feared that it might go away. I realized that I wasn’t letting it have a chance to calmly rest on my palm. I know you were just taking your time. You’ve been doing that from the start. You would never know how much I appreciated you for that. You were just probably as scared as I was. Not even half I bet, for now you have everything to lose. 

I’m nearing the end of the chessboard. Soon I’ll be transformed into a queen. I don’t know how to rule. This whole sense of sovereignty and royalty is far too profound for me to comprehend. 

Give me reasons to trust you. 

Tell me you’ll guard me with all your heart. 

Tell me you’ll erase the fear that I’ve been having of falling in love. 

Assure me that you’re the one I’ve been longing for and I’ll forever be yours. 

Check. Your move… 

For What It's Worth

I want you to know that...

It doesn’t matter to me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you would risk looking like a fool for love,
for your dreams, for the adventures of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me, which planets are squaring with your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shriveled from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain - mine and your own -
without moving to hid it, or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine and your own;
if you can dance with wildness and ecstasy,
fill the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic,
or to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself;
if you can bear the causation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,
and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “yes!”

It doesn’t matter to me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself,
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

- from Oriah Mountain Dreamer, A native American elder

Go for the Gold

In celebration of the Binibining Pilipinas golden year, I present to you 10 lovely, golden binibinis, who I strongly believe will shine tonight... They are extraordinary ladies, with extraordinary beauty, wit and confidence... Goodluck girls.

I had this contradiction with the belief that when you find that one person whom you’ll love and will love you in return, your life will be complete. In my opinion, you must be a complete person before you can commit or before you can truly love another person.

In love, you are not required to be perfect. You only need to be the best that you can be and if that other person cannot appreciate what you can ONLY offer then that person do not deserve you.

When you love, love as if you’ve never love before. Love unconditionally. And when you find that special person that you’ll love forever and if that person loves you more than his/her life, take less of that love but give more of your love. Never be greedy. Love requires symmetry and balance and limits.

Forget Me Not

We are all frightened by the thought of being forgotten and when we realize we are, we are saddened. We think that we are not at all remembered when people begin to ignore us or seem to move on well with their lives without us in it. What we don't know is that no matter how brief nor seldom the moments we spent with a person are, we leave a little mark on him/her everytime and it'll forever remain no matter what. The assurance that we are sometimes missed comforts us with the thought that we have loved/cared for that person not in vain... and it makes carrying on easier and less painful.

I Miss You

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.

Yearning

Different colors, different shades and season changes but my love for you doesn't fade.

I still yearn for you.

You are the light that brightens my dusky path.

You give warmth to my frozen heart.

You make me smile in endless ways.

You provide comfort and lift me up when my spirit wanes.

You are the life of my dying soul.

My heart truly yearns for you and it wouldn't ask for more.

To Be With You

I am not asking the sun to shine over me. Not even to light my shadow.

I've seen the sun rise over the mountains and give life to the living. It intensifies its heat as it reaches noon. Its light stings to the skin and becomes painful to the eyes. And when it dawns, the sun gradually hides. Its light mellows down as it shows its enchanting beauty. It reflects in a calm sea as it seems to sink behind.

What I want is to be part of the light. To share its grandeur.

It Hurts Everywhere

I chose to spill the beans than leave things unsaid. Spoken words is better than mere silence. Not everyone is able to read body language or understand just by merely looking straight in the eyes.

Straightforward is an adjective which means frank or honest. The word describes who I am.

My mind is off for a while. I don't want to think.

My heart is in pain. I don't want to feel the pain. I want to numb myself yet there is no known drug to stop this pain. I want to cry but somethings' stopping me. Yet, sometimes the tears keep falling. It hurts me so much. I didn't anticipate that it would be like this. I stopped myself from falling but still I did. I know it's not as painful now as it would be if it happened later.

You

You made me SMILE and LAUGH
You made me HAPPY
You loved ME
You taught me to fall in LOVE
You made me believe in promises
You taught me how to compromise
You gave and taught me so much
What you did that destroyed it all
You made me cry
You broke my heart!

Sa Iyo Na Pinaka-mamahal Ko

I have been telling a student, who become close to me, about the idea of a genuine love. In my existence, I have been through a lot, and my experiences in love leads me to realization that love should be unconditional, selfless. I believe that the reason why people get hurt after falling in love is because they expect something in return. If that person they love can't give them what they expect, it leads to trouble, disappointment and heartbreak. You just have to love, love, love, without expecting in return. If they love you back, that is already a bonus.

Kaya naman, masaya at kuntento na ako sa bawat pagpapahalaga na ibinigay niya sa akin. Minahal ko siya, nagbibigay ako sa kanya, pero hindi ako humihingi ng kapalit. If he choose to give back the love that I keep on giving him, masaya na ako. Kung hindi naman, kuntento na ako sa atensyon niya. Kahit minsan, wala...

Nakakatuwa, I missed him so bad, so parang ginawa ko lahat para makita ko lang siya kahapun. Kaya natuloy ang hindi pina-planong pag swimming namin. I was so excited preparing the things that we need. Pero excited ako na makita siya.

So nagkita nga kami, pero aloof pa rin siya sa akin. He has the personality na mahiyain, even to me... Pero hinayaan ko lang siya, gusto ko pa naman siya maka-usap. Ask him about everything, his plans in life. But I didn't get the chance. Nevertheless, I'm happy dahil nakita ko na naman siya. I said to myself, I'll just be patient. Baka one day, mabigyan ako ng chance na maipakita sa kanya gaano siya kahalaga sa akin. The thought lingers on me, until kanina, when I accompanied my tita and my mom to Dumaguete. I was listening to my Ipad while on the bus, and I didn't notice my tears started to fall when the song in my headset played the song. Siya naman ang nalala ko. It perfectly fits what I may do for him. Call me pathetic, but I'm just expressing how I felt inside.... 

Ibibigay ang lahat-lahat 

Handa kong gawin 

Lahat ng 'yong hiling

Sukli man ay sugat sa puso

Karamay ka

Sa hirap at saya 

Masaktan mo man damdamin ko

Ako'y nandyan pa rin sa 'yong tabi

Kapag ako ay nagmahal

Ang lahat ng ito'y magagawa 

'Di magbabago, 'di maghahangad

Ng anumang kapalit

Kapag ako ay nagmahal

Umiyak man ako 

Hindi ko ito ikakahiya

Handa akong magtiis

Kapag ako, kapag ako ay nagmahal

Sa 'yo lamang

Iikot aking mundo

Sa 'kiy balewala sasabihin ng iba 

Basta't alam ko mahal kita

Kapag ako ay nagmahal

Ang lahat ng ito'y magagawa 

'Di magbabago, 'di maghahangad

Ng anumang kapalit

Kapag ako ay nagmahal

Umiyak man ako 

Hindi ko ito ikakahiya

Handa akong magtiis

Kapag ako, kapag ako ay nagmahal

Hindi ka man maging akin

Lahat ng ito'y gagawin

Kapag ako, kapag ako ay nagmahal

You will never get the chance to read this, but if you do, everything here is true. And this one's for you, 18-18-1.

18-18-1

Kabalo ka, para sa ako special gyud ka. Sa una pa lang naku nga kita nimu, naganahan naku nimu. Kay para sa ako angayan man gud ka. Samot na pag-apil nimu ug sayaw sa festival, na impressed gyud ko pag-ayo sa imung pag-sayaw, kay lami kaayu imu expression.

Didto nag-sugod ako crush kanimo. At first, ako ra gitago kay maulaw gyud ko. Pero later, na obvious naman gud, mao permi na lang ko gisungog nimu. Ganahan unta ko, pero at that time nisugod man ka ug palayo naku. Siguro naulaw ka sa ilang pag sungog-sungog nimu dire kanako. Sorry kaayu, kun naulawan ka. Kabalo ko ako man gyud to sayop.

Mao nga nisugod ka ug likay na naku. Ug na feel na naku nga mataha ka naku. Sakit kaayu paminawun, kay ganahan man unta ko magka-suod ta, apan lage dili nimu tingale masagang ang ilang pag-pagya nimu dre kanako. Bisan tuod nagka-uban ta ug tulo ka tuig, apan lain kaayu paminawun nga aloof ra guihapun ka kanako. Ug dili tikaw mabasol niana.

Tungod niana, nihinay naman gyud ug ka-tigom ang ako gibati nimu, ako na lang kani gihilum. Gi try tikaw ug ignore, ug nagpa-as if nga naa ko uban ganahan. In that way, mawala na sa ilang alimpatakan nga nagka ganahan ko nimu. Ug maka-huna huna sad ka nga kun unsa man ako gibati nimu sauna, nawala na.

Kasakit, napuno ko ug istorya, pretensyon ug uban pa. Kay dili tinuod ang tanan. Kay bisan tuod ug ako paglantaw naa sa uban, sa pinaka-sulod sa akong dughan, ikaw ra man guihapun. Naguol ko sa tago, naghilak ko usahay sa tago. Kay wala ko'y mahimo, kaning tanan pagpakarung-ingnun naku tungod para protektahan ka.

Sa akong pagtan-aw nimu sa layo, malipay ko kun malipay ka. Proud ko kun proud ka sa unsa man imu makab-ot. Bisan ang tanan, dili tungod naku ug para naku. Naunsa naman ko ui, ngano man ako gipasulabi ni ako gibati nimu. Dili man pud gyud ko kapugong.

Sa tulo katuig nga nagka uban ta, walay adlaw nga wala ko nang hinaut nga magka-suod ta, labaw pa kun unsa man naa ta. Ug bisan unsa ako buhatun, mura ug gapalayo gyud ka naku. Hangtud sa nitapos ang tanan ug ikaw adto na sad sa laing ang-ang sa imung kinabuhi, wala guihapun ta nagka-suod. Bisan close nga friend ra gud, hain mo open up ka nako... Andam ko mopangga nimu, andam ko mu-amuma nimu. Akong tinguhaun nga mabuhat ang tanan para nimu.

Naghinaut ko nga tugutan sa kapalaran nga mag-suod ra gyud ta. Ang ako unta nga dili ko nimu makalimtan. Murag ikaw naman gyud ang tanan sa akoa... Pero bisan kaniha, gapalayo ka naku. Maglisod ko ug paduol nimu, kay galihay man ka naku. Nganu man tawun ui. Nganu man tawun ni... Kulang na lang ako idudho ang tanan naku nimu. I wish hatagan ko nimu ug chance. Kay gipangga ko ikaw, karun ug ugma...

Ma-miss gyud tkaw. Sobra. Naghilak ka kay dili naku makakita nimu. Naa na kay imuhang lain world. Magmika na ako life ani... Huhuhuhu!

Some good things never last. And you are the best thing that ever happened to me.... Dili lang kani ang katapusan nga maghilak ko para nimu. Ug dili lang kani ang higayun nga magsulti ko kabahin ani... Kabahin nimu... :'(

Haplos

Tinitigan ko ang aninong nasa dilim
At nagsimulang mangilid ang aking mga luha
Ingay ng mga kuliglig ang sunod kong narinig
Tila binagsakan ako ng langit
Sa bigat ng pinapasan kong sakit
Gusto kong humagulgol
Ngunit pinili kong lumuha na lamang ng tahimik
Sa kapayapaan ng gabi ko ibubulong ang lahat
Ang kadiliman ang piping saksi sa aking pagtangis
Narinig ko ang malakas na ihip ng hangin
At naramdaman ko ang lamig na dulot nito
Ninais kong may yumakap sa akin
Subalit binitiwan ko na nga pala ang puso nya
At ngayon, nangungulila ako
Umaasang siya'y magbabalik
Dahil dito sa aking puso
May nakalaang lugar para sa kanyang pag-ibig.

To Love or Not To Love

LOVE cannot be explained. It can only be experienced. Love cannot be explained, yet it explains it all.

I always wonder how a person can love so much that he or she is blinded by that love and seem to forget all other things. This may be how the saying, “You and me against the world,” was coined. It’s as if two people created their own world and sees no one else but them.
As I was reading my current favorite book, I read a line that says, “Love cannot be explained. It can only be experienced. Love cannot be explained, yet it explains all.” It’s like a lightning bolt strikes at me at that very moment.

I suddenly asked myself, “How can you criticize other people on how they express their love? How can you know if it’s right or wrong when you never experience it the way they did. You will never understand until you feel it with your own heart and you see it with your own eyes.

People love differently. You may see others falling madly in love with another and you would say they are crazy. How will you know when you don’t feel it yourself?

I began to realize that it is easy to criticize but it will be very hard to understand.

Thus, when asked, “Why do you love him or her?” One simply answers, “I don’t know. I just do.”

Ugma na lang...

Ugma na lang ta kita
Ugma na lang kun ready na ta sa usag-usa
Ugma kun ang mga kaguol ug kalagut nahanaw na
Sa atung mga dughan

Di man ikaw para naku
Ug ako para nimu
Pero wala pa ta kabalo sa kapalaran
Basta ako maglaum nga ugma
Anaa ka sa atung panagsabot