To Live or Not To Live

There was once a commercial on an instant coffee that carries a catch-phrase "Kanino ka ba gigising?" It was catchy and apt for the product because it tries to set the mindset of its target market to make their product part of their daily morning routine.

The catch-phrase, question rather, simply asked who are you inspiration that motivates you to live the day. Who will make you smile every time you open your eyes in the morning. For awhile, I have been searching for that very person who will motivate me to wake up, and live my day. I did every thing, at least to what I know, to find him. But I end up disappointed. No one can live to my expectation. They say that when you love someone, you just love, without expectation. And I believe that, embrace it to be precise. Though it worked for awhile, but I never felt a sense of fulfillment. Coz I'm human, and when I do things, I expect something, or else I will not be fulfilled. I am not selfish. I have to be true to myself. Why would I keep on pushing myself to someone who can never give me the love that I need. So I moved on, and keep on looking for someone who can give me what I need. Until I get tired.

I realized then that if I keep chasing on love, I lose track of other things. Things that matters as well. So I pay attention to them, forget about love and do what I must do. After doing it for quite sometime already, I experience fulfillment, an inner satisfaction. And I'm the happiest. So now, I don't care if I have someone special or not. I live my life, I choose to live my life. But it doesn't mean that I'm closing doors. I believe that love comes on perfect time and perfect person. I just keep on trusting God.

So "Kanino ako gigising?" Everyday I wake up and get inspired with the people around me, who love more than anything else in this world. My mom, my relatives and my friends. :-)